She Lives.

Oh boy it has been a while. A LOT has happened since my last post.

Cliff Notes Version:

• Surgery worked amazingly and I'm down to 168 pounds. I'm actively trying to not lose anymore weight at this point. I couldn't be more stoked about the outcome. I have a lot of extra skin but that's to be expected. Some day I'll have the money to get plastic surgery but for now I'm happy with where I'm at. 

• I packed up my life and moved cross country to live with my boyfriend in Boston. We road tripped out to Massachusetts and visited some people along the way. I did a Tim Burton inspired Mary Poppins photo shoot with a friend in Oklahoma, got to pet a sloth in Florida where I visited my brother, and held hands with a monkey in North Carolina visiting old friends from the Army days. Seriously the most amazing experiences. 

• I accidentally got a job as an assistant manager in a group home and it's going as well as it can be. Everyone seems to like me there and I get a lot of compliments from the school staff and different therapists that come through. I thought I was applying for a basic residential position and when I was in my interview he mentioned that it was for the assistant manager position. I was like oh... I didn't mean to apply for that but seeing as I got the interview I'll go ahead and move forward. I have a lot more responsibilities at work and even though I get my ass beat daily my job is pretty okay. I work with pretty low functioning kids and there's a few of them that are pretty freaking aggressive. My boyfriend won't go out in public with me unless I'm wearing long sleeved shirts because people think he beats me I'm so covered in bruises from work. It's crazy. 

• Debt. I recently (as in like four days ago) took out a personal loan and consolidated all of my debt. I have paid everything off except for my car and now this loan. (BTW bought a car before the road trip) The interest on the loan is ridiculous and I don't want to talk about it but with how much I'm making as an ARM and the overtime I've been able to pick up I'll be making bigger payments monthly. I plan on making at least twice the minimum monthly balance every month. By getting ahead of the interest and paying it off in such big chunks I'll be able to get it paid off early enough to where the interest rate won't hurt me. It feels SO good to have everything else paid off though. Student loan, Care Credit card, everything. Reliiieeef. 

So other that that I've decided to kinda start the 101 in 1001 thing again, but more like over the next five years, and I've been slowly writing them up. I think I'm going to change the direction of this blog into a goal driven type deal. I'm basically going to focus on completing everything on that list. Like a bucket list kinda thing ya dig? I'll be revamping the layout and possibly the name here soon because when I'm not at work I'm bored and this gives me something creative to do. 

Welp that's it for now. Hopefully I'll have another post for you here shortly and I don't disappear for another year. We'll see how it goes. 

Guess who's back? Back again. B is back. Tell a friend.

Well it's been a while. I've got a lot to catch you up on oh boy. Look, I suck at blogging on the regular. My life is hectic and hasn't gotten any less busy since the last time I posted, but I love it. And I was thinking I wanted a place to be able to write about all the changes and jazz that are going on and realized I already had one that I abandoned. So here I am. I'm not planning on being back on any regular posting schedule, but I'll try to do something more often than six months later. So. Where to begin, I suppose my weight loss is going to be the big one people want to see.

Okay so as you can clearly see surgery did me very well. 

Very well. 

My face looks totally different which is pretty awesome. 

And frankly I'm just a much happier and healthier person. I wish I could say I'm on some super regulated diet routine or that I work out all the time but I don't. This pretty much just came with watching what I eat for the most part and eating much, much less than I used to. I don't limit myself for the most part. I was lucky and the only real thing I've noticed that sucks is I have some acid reflux now and my hair did start falling out for a while, but it appears to be growing back in so I'm okay with it. As Rafaki would say it's in the past. 

So I finally was able to file for divorce. I actually filed last week, I'll be going back to the courthouse on Friday to request my hearing date. I've had some issues with getting everything together, and my credit is totally fucked because the car got left in Alaska and repossessed (woo... not.) but I'm genuinely ecstatic to be done with my marriage. 

In other nothing to do with Fuck Face news I have a boyfriend now. We've actually been dating since January and I may end up writing more about him in the future, but right now we're just enjoying it being the two of us. He's in the military and ETS's in a few months so when my lease is up I'll be moving to the east coast. I know, I know. I'm packing up my life and moving across country for a dude again. I'm good at that. But I'm the type of person that follows my heart so I'm going for it. He's the first functional relationship I've ever had. 

My entire life I've dated broken men. Men who needed some sort of support from me, because I'm a fixer. I knew they wouldn't leave me because they were broken and needed fixing. My guy isn't broken. He doesn't need to be fixed and that's scary. It's also incredibly freeing. He is 100% with me because he wants me, not because he needs me. And that makes a world of a difference to me. He's pretty awesome. 

I've been living on my own since mid February. I've got my own car, an apartment, and I pay all my own bills. I am working my ass off to get out of debt. I currently have two jobs. I work at a company with adults with special needs and I love it. I honestly LOVE it. It makes me so happy and I feel so rewarded by doing it. I go into work at 3 pm on Friday and work straight through until Sunday morning at 8 am. I'm allowed to sleep and in those two days (I don't really count Sunday because all I do is wake up, pass meds, and leave) I've gotten all of my hours in for the week plus an hour of overtime. I've been picking up a lot of overtime lately. All I do is work and watch Netflix. I decided to get a second job because the gas was negating some of the pay for the overtime and once you reach a certain level of overtime you're basically just paying taxes. I got a job at the truck stop down the street from me so save on gas money. I have five days off a week so I wanted something to do during those days while working towards my goals. Not including whatever I'll owe on my half of the car after it's auctioned off I had four debt payments. Target, Care Credit, NFM, and my student loan. With my last overtime check I completely paid off my Target card. I've decided that every penny of my gas station paycheck will be put towards paying off my debt in large chunks. Between my next paycheck from my full time job and my part time job I will be able to completely pay off my Care Credit account as well. I then plan to snowball my way out of debt until I only have the car stuff left.

Once I have my four main accounts paid off all of my extra paycheck will go into savings, with me moving across the country I'm going to need some money saved up. Especially considering we'll be road tripping the whole way there stopping in a few states to see some friends, so money is pretty important for that. We'll also be buying a car together before we move, which is pretty scary and exciting. Once I get to the east coast I won't have any bills other than my cell phone and car insurance so my full paycheck from whatever job I get there will go towards paying off the remainder of the car. I'm hoping to be completely out of debt by this time next year. That's my goal. 

So basically my future plans are pretty simple. I'm going to work both jobs until December and mostly out of debt. I'll quit the gas station at the start of January. I should be going to visit my family in California in January so I'll use my vacation time then. I'll have plenty saved up for sure. I'll move to the east coast and get rid of the remainder of my debt. Once I'm out of debt I'll start saving until I have enough money to pay to go back to school to get my associates out of pocket. (I should be able to afford to start by next fall if all goes well) I'm not sure what exactly I want to go to school for yet but it'll be something in the human services field I'm sure. Then... we'll see. 

I'm not really going to take my blog in any particular direction. I'm going to just post about whatever is going on and whenever I want to do a brain dump. So I'll see you next time I decide to come back. 

I'm Too Tired To Function

So I'm not planning on doing much writing today because I am exhausted. I started my job and well... this is my first three weeks. Keep in mind that Work is overnights and the training is smack dab in the middle of the day. So I've been sleeping in three hours naps for the past week.

Yeah, it basically sucks right now. But I like most of the girls I'm working with and they seem to be responding well to me so I'll take it. I only have two more weeks to go until I'm on a normal schedule. Anyways I wanted to update ya'll on my stats since I haven't done it since before I left Alaska. Boom baby, boom.

And that is all. I'm going to go crash now. It's almost 11 am, but goodnight.