Thwarted Again

I get that good things come to those who wait but sometimes I can't help but hate how long you have to wait for good things. I had my final nutrition appointment and I was cleared. She said she doesn't see anything wrong with me going through with it. I had my swallow study and let me tell you, the CIA should implement that as a new torture technique because holy hell that was AWFUL. It was like drinking pure chalk with a. Tiny bit of water. It was absolutely disgusting and I almost threw up as soon as the texture hit my mouth. I laid down in the little X-ray bed and they flipped me over s bunch of times and took pictures. I was told I have a mild case of reflux but it's not bad enough to be too much of a worry. I'll basically just be put on reflex medication and I'll be good. I went and got my blood work done and waited patiently for the end of the month to come around so that I could go in and schedule my appointment. Best laid plans and all that though. Apparently after my blood work came in they realized that I tested positive for some bacteria in my stomach that can cause stomach ulcers. The treatment for this is a two week course of antibiotics and then 4-6 weeks after that I have to go blow air into a balloon so they can send it off and test it for the bacteria. Because I tested positive for it in my blood work all blood work for the rest of my life will apparently test positive for it. This puts off my surgery a lot longer than I had anticipated it being. I have an appointment with psych on the 25th so they can get a baseline for my moods pre surgery to be able to make sure that my crazy pills are absorbing correctly post surgery. Then I have an appointment on the first of October to hopefully get the testing done for the bacteria again and schedule my surgery. The surgeon said he was hoping to have my surgery done by the end of October so fingers seriously crossed on this one.

I understand that this takes a while and that they're doing everything in their power to make sure that this surgery goes as smoothly as possible and I obviously appreciate it. I am however frustrated that they had my results a month ago and didn't start my antibiotics then. I could be scheduling my surgery this week but instead I'm stuck in the perpetual waiting game that is driving me insane. I'm ready to start moving forward with this part of my life and I've been stuck waiting for ten months come my next appointment. This was supposed to be a six month waiting period and things have been getting screwed up with miscommunications and switching through so many different surgeons due to deployments and leaves. I get it, and I'm happy I'm getting the care that's needed but hot damn I'm annoyed. 

Other than that life has been relatively boring. I'll have some news in the upcoming months but it's not something that I can make public for a bit longer. Big life changes are coming yo, and eventually I'll get back into the swing of positing more than once every few months. 

I Bet You've Been Wanting Another Update

My computer was killed by my dogs so I haven't posted in a while. I had my appointment with my surgeon today so I'm going to go ahead and give a little update. It's not going to be a super long post because I'm on my iPad and don't want like typing on this thing. The last time I posted I was freaking out about the psych evaluation. I freaked out for nothing, the appointment went super smooth and although we did talk about my mental health history for the most part he just wanted to make sure that I understood what the surgery was going to do and that I have a good support system. At the end of the appointment he shook my hand and told me that he was going to recommend me for surgery so boom. Out of the way. I had my appointment with nutrition and unfortunately she didn't clear me. It was a brand new nutritionist and she said she prefers to see her patients twice. I explained that I was working on trying to get it scheduled for as soon as possible so she went ahead and scheduled me for an appointment Monday where we'll go over the diet for after the surgery and she'll sign off on me getting the surgery. Tuesday morning I go in for my blood work, a urine nicotine test, and a swallow study. I'm NOT excited about the swallow study because that just sounds awful. They'll have me drink a drink with barium in it which from what my mom described is like drinking a milkshake that someone made with chalk and it sits super heavy in your stomach. I'm very much not excited about that. The blood work I'm getting done is to test the bacteria in my stomach. There's good bacteria and bad bacteria, the bad bacteria causes ulcers so they're making sure that I don't have the bad bacteria which will cause issues after surgery. Once I have all of those completed I'll end up going over to the surgery area and making another appointment to get my surgery scheduled. The surgeon mentioned possibly getting the surgery on the 3rd but then said that may be a little to quick so he may push it back a little bit. As long as everything goes according to plan it will DEFINITELY be happening in August. It's getting so freaking close guys, I'm getting so nervous but so excited. The surgeon also made sure to let me know that I should expect to lose 50-60% of my excess weight if I do the absolute bare minimum, which would put me down to 225 lbs and losing almost 85lbs. That's amazing to me and that's with the bare minimum not working out, making sure to follow the diet to the T etc. I'm going to make this sleeve my bitch yo.

Operation Stomach Snip is Progressing

So I'm back from California and mostly settle back into my everyday life again. I called my surgeons office and talked to them about the next steps that I need to accomplish getting my surgery. I called and got my psych evaluation set up for tomorrow and I'm not going to lie I'm nervous as hell. I've been told time and time again that my being Bi-polar is NOT something that will disqualify me from getting the surgery but it still makes me nervous. I'm medicated and have been for a year so I know that will look good. From what I've been told they're mainly focusing on making sure that I don't have an eating disorder, that I understand what I'm getting myself into, and that I have a good support system. I'm probably stressing over nothing but until I'm cleared I'm going to be pretty nervous.

Other than that I have my nutrition appointment on the 16th which I hope will be my last appointment beforehand. I need to be signed off on it but when I was supposed to go back for my follow up last time the breaks went out and then it kind of fell to the back burner. I've been keeping track of what I eat since I got back from California because they need 30 days of a food journal before I can be approved. It will be like four days short of 30 days, but hopefully that's okay. After the nutritionist I have blood work that needs to be done, from what I understand it's just testing vitamin levels and the such so minus the fact that my vitamin D has been low since I got here I think I'm pretty good.

Lastly I have an appointment on the 22nd to HOPEFULLY set my surgey date which should be within two weeks from then. Hopefully. I'm not going to lie, I'm scared. A small part of me is like what the fuck are you doing Becca? But I KNOW that this is what I need to move forward with my life in a happier and much healthier way so I'm more excited than I am scared. It's pretty nerve racking the closer I get, but this is what I've been working on for months now, so I've got this.